Reader's Diary (Week 35)

The masochistic frame of mind should not be confused with that of normal self-giving in love: the latter means self-giving of one person to another, in freedom, with an eye to objective values, but without reference to an extinction of one's own will and a wilful destruction of one's own personal dignity; in masochism, by contrast, one's experience of the beloved person, and her proximity, is not important at all (even if the approach be one of service, entreaty, or submission); it is, rather, an abstract experience of the other person as a subjugating power that encapsulates sexual pleasure, a power which, far from confirming and enriching the personal being and value ties of the masochistic 'lover', constricts and chokes them.
(Kolnai, 1930)

Personal note: in the blog i have already shared some interesting thoughts about masochism (and intentionally left out popular views of Freud, Deleuze and others from that line of thinking - as being simply contradictory to my own experiences and thoughts). By the definition above i am not a masochist. Kind of funny.

Cranach's Financial Domination, Part 4

One more and final set of the Cranach's ill-matched pair paintings (Part 1, Part 2, Part 3). Cranach and his large workshop made a lot of them. Business success of the topic is quite remarkable. Enjoy...

Roger Vivier

Coronation shoes of Her Majesty Queen Elizabeth II

Roger Vivier (1913-1998), the 'Fragonard of the shoe' was one of the most innovative fashion designers of the last century. He is commonly considered to be an inventor of stiletto (not true), he created pilgrim buckle shoes popularized by Catherine Deneuve in Belle du Jour, the thigh-high boots popularized by Bridget Bardot and also, and he became famous for it, the jewel encrusted shoes for Queen Elizabeth II's coronation (just imagine, a British Monarch receiving the crown in French shoes). 

Bridget Bardot & Vivier's Boots

Catherine Deneuve & Pilgrim pumps

Vivier's shoes seemed avant-garde but quickly become classics. Today his shoes can be found in many museums around the world, his footwear still sells well and his designs are still copied by others. Originally i wanted to share something else, but let's leave it for next entry... here is just a little taste:

Good Morning

Good Night

Good night, my Mistress, my Queen. This last van Gogh's painting from the asylum shows a link between our world and the sky, a bridge to the heavens, a path to the moon and stars, one true star - You.

Cranach's Financial Domination, Part 3

 Part 3 of Cranach's ill-matched couples series (Part 1, Part 2). Enjoy...

Good Morning

Lily of the Valley - lovely, delicate and slightly poisonous flower, symbol of humility, formed from tears of Virgin Mary, grew from the blood shed by Saint Leonard during his fight with a dragon... on a splendid picture taken by ultimate master of still life photography, Josef Sudek... is here to make Your day more beautiful, my gorgeous Mistress. Good morning to YOU.

Sleepless Night 2

Sleepless Night

The Dream of a Summer Day

 

When the day that lies ahead of me
Seems impossible to face
When someone else instead of me
Always seems to know the way

 

Then i look at You
And the world's alright with me
Just one look at You
And i know it's gonna be
A lovely day

Good Morning!

Good morning, my Mistress, let morning sunlight creep in and softly whisper to get up, a new day is here for YOU!

The First Birthday

It is year today since i was born. i was looking for a Mistress, real Mistress and real Ds. i was looking for a relationship, closeness, somebody to share my fantasies with. i was tired of living in fantasies. It is a year today since i met Her. The Mistress. My Mistress. There is not enough superlatives to praise HER. SHE took my life and changed it, changed it for better. SHE changed me. And i am a better person now thanks to HER. i am HER slave, but not only that. i am all HERS.

i was so foolish. i was looking for a Mistress, but i have found the most beautiful person i could ever imagine. Somebody you want to serve not only because of Ds itself, because of your fantasies and your satisfaction and HER fantasies and HER excitement, but because you want to make that person happy, you want to see HER smiling, and you want to be with HER so much, that all time of this world is not enough. You simply want to be a part of HER universe and it seems like the only thing that really matters.

Oh, Goddesses, i swore to myself that i would not use big words. And here we are... At least no fancy pictures today. This entry it is not about Ds, about fantasy, about sex or excitement. About loneliness. It is about celebration of life, and beauty and relationship. i hate myself for all these useless years, for my hopelessness... but i am alive today, SHE did find me. i met HER. And even if i would be allowed to show HER picture to all of you, you would see gorgeous Woman, oh, so pretty, but it could not show you HER soul, HER inner beauty, HER personality.

i am 1 today. i am grateful. What a year! It is just good that you do not know what lies ahead. Thank YOU, my Mistress, thank YOU for everything.